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I want to feel Once again real Trapped in this hell Evermore I need escape I need new faith I am godless Mind abolished A lifetime of depression is Overwhelming I want out No one can save Me from this place I must act lone To be free My name is suicide You and I will coincide I will be your estranged lover But you can never leave me This courtship is lifelong (no divorce) I will stay in your thoughts I will haunt your fucking dreams I will send you agony You do not get to choose It is I who chooses you I want to watch you take your life It brings my spite to new heights After all you go through I will find another who Feels the same exact way Give them death, make them pay It lives inside us Begging to be free It will destroy all It is lunacy It makes us feel weak Frail and afraid The light is gone We just want our graves It has been with me For a whole lifetime I try to keep it In the darkest depths of my mind It will not leave me Neither you as well It exists on earth A place known as hell The images burn Inside my mind's eye I can see it My own suicide These thoughts are with me All the fucking time It's like someone screaming No need to be alive A lack of purpose In this awful life A noose is yearning And so grows my spite I never wanted Life to be like this Never found it so hard Simply to exist Take this pain away I do not want it now I want to feel again I want fucking out This burden' s crushing me Burying all my light Imprisoned in darkness I am emboldened by the spite Apathy is rising high Could care less about my life The only thing keeping me going is Knowing that I'll die This place is so cold Frozen and pitch black I have gone blind and emotionless Pray it's taken aback This depression fetish A blinding revelation It is inside us all Our annihilation I know you are the same Locked inside this dirty cell Seeking out the answers Only finding hell We cannot continue A society built on pain Suicidal nirvana Torment in our brains We must leave this behind And step into the light Seemingly impossible Trapped inside this life My name is recovery We will have familiarity I will not be your friend But I'll help you to the end I want to cure you Take all your pain away I want to help you Get your escape I want to make you Feel something again I want to save you From yourself again But one day I will leave Leaving you in bitter grief Repeat the cycle again Screaming out for the bitter end No I will break this cycle I will break this cycle I will break this cycle No I will break this cycle I will break this cycle I will break this cycle No I will break this cycle I will break this cycle I will break this cycle No I will break this cycle I will break this cycle I will break this cycle

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"I told you she won't let me leave. She won't let anyone leave. Did you really think you could destroy this ship? She has defied space and time. She's been to a place you couldn't possibly imagine. And now... it is time to go back." "I know... to Hell." "You know nothing. Hell is only a word. Reality is much, much worse." Hell is only a fucking word Reality is so much, much worse I long for the silence of eternity A delusion inside, it's burning me Motherfucker Tossing and turning and twitching in torment I derealize Pacing and panting and panic in pain I dissociate Crying and killing the constant corruption I depersonalize Haptic delusion, a sign of the end times I exit life I stood at the edge and Gazed beyond the realms of Humankind I wanted to fall in It would not fix my world But it was an answer I wanted to fall in And so I gave up Take a seat, metal It's time for rap to meddle Just got a sneaking suspicion About another apparition A viscious visage haunting my slumber It' s crushing me like a hundred motherfucking pieces of lumber I'm all sixes and sevens at the 7-11 But pardon my digression Got a haptic delusion I'm in a manic confusion From my mental contusions And a depression-suicide fusion I'm using this space to vent Instead of making a dent Inside the side of my head Thinking I'd be better off dead I'm trapped in a constant battle Want my death rattle Can't stop my psycho babble I've lost all sense of reason I'm l ost in suicide season Thinking I'll be bleeding all over the place soon I'ma get a shotgun, Kurt Cobain boom Yeah Just a haptic delusion, I'm a fucking wreck I'm gonna do my best To deny all emotional existence Sociopathic position That's where we all must be In this new society They did it to you and did it to me You and I and them and they will never be free Don't you see agony in accepting this reality We want to be what can not be We must delude ourselves Into lack of mental health Trapped like it's fucking Cube The next room can be your doom Just call me paranoid Feels like I entered the void Return type, fuck you The world will never love you Just accept that death is all that we have left Time to give up, put it to rest

Suicidal society Gathered masses here to see Broken systems Life's a plague It's the new normal As we degenerate Our depression fetish is So apparent, isn't it? Death toll rising, we all laugh Dying, oh, what's better than that? Empty bottles, bloody tubs The allure of death, we're in love What can we do about this? Suppose we could slit our wrists Negative and bleak outlook After all the time we took We do not care anymore If we find bodies on the floor It has become rite of passage Adulthood is craving your own ashes This thing must be acknowledged Before we are all demolished

Here we go again In this segmentation Rumination once again I can not find the meaning I fight against myself And just leave scarred again Never good enough For fucking anyone Inferiority It screams in my face It tells me another lie And I believe it again I can not escape this It will take everything From contemplations to plans I can't break this wall I feel so ignominious Wielding anchors on my soul Ache is my only true companion I've mastered the art of dissociation Amalgamated with the dead On the day it had stricken me down Walking empty infinitely I am a living despicable disease No one would ever call my name My distance grows greater with each passing day So burn my grave and drown the light Drain the inferiority out of me For we are all destined to die We are all secretly just waiting for our time I chose to live with this disease I cannot abscond it, begging on my knees I do not want this plague I want it out of my brain I'm so sick of this agony I want to be set free Stab me right through the heart I won't feel it, I promise you Put me to death as I plead I start to feel as I start to bleed Take this from me, do it now I know there is no coming back But I never had that choice In the first place When I heard it's voice It chose me to suffer it's wrath I need to go, there's no coming back It chose me to suffer it's wrath I need to go, there's no coming back Separated from everyone I chose the darkest hole Withered in the sun It ate away at my soul I chose this fate I suffered endlessly My subconscious bleeds This wall is so fucking tall I use all my strength I pull apart the mortar Brick by brick, I destroy But the lies keep building it up Invisible construction The shadow people dwell Inferiority complex I built my own hell Giant steps forward For colossal steps back I am going nowhere Until it all collapses I am a broken mirror Held together with thin tape I can function in society But my cracks continue to bleed These pieces barely fit back together I can not bind these woes Tying together the atrocities Would never help me make it home I do not fit in anywhere I think it was a mistake to try to live My reflections of this world Are they true, am I truly alone? I carry the carcass of a soul I keep lying to myself that I am alone I know I am surrounded But the inferiority is compounded I do not want this plague I want it out of my brain I'm so sick of this agony I want to be set free Stab me right through the heart I won't feel it, I promise you Put me to death as I plead I start to feel as I start to bleed Take this from me, do it now I know there is no coming back But I never had that choice In the first place When I heard it's voice It chose me to suffer it's wrath I need to go, there's no coming back It chose me to suffer it's wrath I need to go, there's no coming back And so I am a collection of failures and infinite defeat But for every loss, a quiet victory as I return to my feet A tower of character built in solitude But in it's completion, the first cracks start to appear I am broken

Take this body away It no longer serves me Room of no light No exit in sight The stench of anticipation plagues me Haunted by my hope Unfulfilled and alone A chandelier of disquiet - falls on me In a coffin of darkness Surrounded by the pain Imprisoned by existence Destruction of my life There is no exit Just a memory false Clawing at my mind Until the last moment - of my life Upon my disembarkment Into the unknown Violation of sacricity I have found my new home Six feet deep is my sanity Goodbye, worthless world Peace and pain will not conflict again For the war has gone - to the dark I will not accept this This hellish fate I will step into the light And escape This ocean of sorrow Will run so dry All I have to do Is step into the light Those moments of weakness Are far behind me I will not go back I cannot go back With my head held high I will leave it behind Forget everything I've known And step into the light